Remember to feel your inner glow
It’s mental health awareness week, and strangely enough, I am wide awake and especially aware of my mental health this week, so I thought I would touch on my own journey with Mental Health.
My mental health challenge (or journey), started after the birth of my third daughter. I remember feeling a sense of emptiness, nothingness. I was super sensitive, emotional, and extremely highly strung. This was not like me, I was a sensitive human by nature,kind, considerate and generous, all traits that seem to have just melted away. How could I feel this way, when I had created the perfect little human?
After a long period of dancing with the devil, I reached out for help and was diagnosed with Bi-Polar disorder. As tragic as I thought this sounded, I also had a sense of relief. I could get some help and I could also help myself, realising I wasn’t choosing to feel this way, it was just my brain giving me a run for my money. I was scared to tell anyone back then about, as Mental Health had much more of a stigma attached to it. We’re talking 2008. Luckily my husband supported me all the way, and despite my feelings of shame and embarrassment, he never stopped being the loving support I so clearly needed.
After years of medication, I made the decision that this wasn’t the route I wanted to take. (No medical advice from me guys). Instead I looked at cognitive therapies, hypnosis, and self help, whether it be books, dieting and exercise. After years of trying everything, I met Becky. I guess you could say it was fate, she came into my life at the right time. She introduced me to META-Health and Meditation, and I absolutely fell in love with Mediation. It gave me a release, a sense of purpose, and helped me relax, something I’ve always struggled to do. Becky has the most calming presence and she is the zen of our friendship and business relationship.
This past week, Feel the Glow released the new Well-being Journal, something that has been in the making for probably a year - wow! So, this week, I started one myself, which feels quite strange writing in a journal, you’ve had a part of creating, but it is giving me a release and understanding of my feelings right now. With the world as it currently is, I’ve been an emotion bi-polar rollercoaster. I have a strong desire to get back to full force within my businesses, but also a strong anxiety about how COVID will effect my children’s health and their education, not to mention my husband with Asthma. I have told myself, that it’s okay to have these thoughts, listen to them, understand them, and be at peace with them. The Journal has allowed me to write these feelings down, but also to write some positive intentions, despite these thoughts of worry.
It’s okay to have thoughts of uncertainty through this difficult time, but be kind to yourself.
Remember to feel your inner glow!
Vicky x